What's become of the broken hearted..

I kept wondering why I posted this song "what's become of the broken hearted".. but now I know why.. my husband of over 20 years.. the father of my 3 beautiful children and I split.. it was not a happy ending.. but I loved him so much.. and he left me broken hearted.. I did everything I could to keep it together.. I have a hard time writing this.. because he took his own life.. and did it on my now husbands birthday.. people have told me that he didn't know the day.. but I think he did and I think he did it on purpose to spoil that day forever.. Plus his wife called my daughter first to let her know.. the last person who should have known first.. ugly.. the wife has never let the kids have any of this things.. things that should have been kept in our family.. pictures, history.. whatever.. the piano that we had for over 25 years.. none of it goes to them from their father.. they can't even read the note he wrote before he died...it breaks their hearts and it breaks mine too.. even though we didn't end well.. It still hurts.

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