Happy Birthday to my own boy

Happy Birthday on Sunday to my own little boy.. he's the baby of the family.. has overcome many obstacles.. he is now a math scholar.. and doing so well.. married to his wonderful wife, Kim.  I'm so very proud of both of them.. He has worked and been on his own since high school.. now back at school and has scholarships and grants.. he has become an amazing baker at his work..

One time he told me that I had never made cookies with him.. kind of broke my heart.. and now he has had a job for several years being a gluten free baker.. something Mama never taught him..

This is his birth announcement.. It's not a great pic but you get the idea. 

I love this young man with all my heart.. he has grown and matured.. and chosen life and to be happy!!  Can't wait to see him again!

My Birthday Boy

Our birthday boy after eating his cupcake.

Our little boy

We had a wonderful visit with all the kids.. Our little boy just turned one.. we had a birthday party for all the girls who have summer birthdays.. funny how Adam got into the picture too!!

My three kids and Adam's lovely wife Kim and my Mom.

Such a happy little boy

Loving on his Grampa

 Nana gets a hug!

What's become of the broken hearted..

I kept wondering why I posted this song "what's become of the broken hearted".. but now I know why.. my husband of over 20 years.. the father of my 3 beautiful children and I split.. it was not a happy ending.. but I loved him so much.. and he left me broken hearted.. I did everything I could to keep it together.. I have a hard time writing this.. because he took his own life.. and did it on my now husbands birthday.. people have told me that he didn't know the day.. but I think he did and I think he did it on purpose to spoil that day forever.. Plus his wife called my daughter first to let her know.. the last person who should have known first.. ugly.. the wife has never let the kids have any of this things.. things that should have been kept in our family.. pictures, history.. whatever.. the piano that we had for over 25 years.. none of it goes to them from their father.. they can't even read the note he wrote before he died...it breaks their hearts and it breaks mine too.. even though we didn't end well.. It still hurts.

http://vimeo.com/2622219

Happy Birthday!!

Today is Zackary's first birthday!!  It seems like this year has flown by and he's a big boy now!  He crawls around like wildfire.. can stand and do a little walking while holding on to something.  He is a very busy boy and the love of our lives!  I wish so much I could be there to celebrate with him but we have a young man graduating tomorrow so I need to be here.  We will go later on and have another birthday.  It's still early on the west coast so no pics yet.. but when they come in I will post them.. for now Happy Birthday, Sweet Boy!

Happy Mother's Day from my Wonderful Children

My Children made this beautiful video for me.  Makes me very happy.  I know it took a lot of time and effort to do and is such a wonderful gift

.

Lazy Bones

I often feel like a lazy bones.. I think part of it has been not feeling well for a long time and not wanting to do anything.. I'm doing better these days but I have the habit of putting things off.. I've talked before about timer cleaning.. I'm trying to do that more and more.. I can do just about anything for 15 minutes.. and if I'm really good I give myself 15 minutes on the computer or watching something on my DVR then I do another round of cleaning..  It's pretty amazing how much you can get done in 15 minutes.

My sister is truly amazing.. she was always a neat freak.. Her house is still neat but she has let up a bit on the cleaning.. but honestly.. it's still very clean.  They own a cattle ranch and in the past several years they haven't hired as many cowboys as in the past.. so she works on the ranch just like the guys.. Right now she is doing something called "dragging meadows".. not sure what that is but it involves a tractor probably.. during the summer she runs the swather and cuts the hay.. in the spring helps with any calves that need help.. besides doing all that she keeps the house clean.. cooks for any crew that is there.. does all the laundry and irons everything in the house.. She has been an inspiration to me and also has taught me so much.. She is a nurse just like my Mom and several aunts.. has done a lot to help me figure out health issues..