Journals

I've always liked to journal.. I had diaries when I was young.. they are probably thrown out now.. I have kept emails and letters from people.. and I like to go back to read them from time to time.  My ex and I saw a therapist.. she thought it was odd that I brought a notebook with me and wrote things down.  I told her it's just me and it makes me feel better.  I am a list maker and it seems when I make the lists nothing gets crossed off even though I have been busy all day.. so I started making a list of what I actually did.. she thought that was odd too.. I don't think it's odd.. I still do it.. I make a list in my email and save it as a draft.  I don't do it every day.  I sometimes make a to do list and then a ta da list.. it's satisfying to me to see what I have accomplished during the day.

Light of our lives

Zack is growing and changing so fast.. the last few weeks he has learned to sit up.. has learned to crawl.. I love seeing him on video chat and talking to him on the phone.. what a dear, sweet boy he is.. we think he is teething and so has a little trouble.. but Mama and Daddy are there to help.. He is so into everything.. loves his toys.. loves anything electronic.. like Nana's wireless mouse.. and he loves to hold hands..

Meet Me On Monday

Ok, Ok.. I know it's Thursday.. and I have no idea how to do a linky.. but I saw this on a blog and want to try it..

 

Heather at Acting Balanced gives us 5 questions each week to answer and the post includes a linky so we can BlogHop!. Heather said this meme is based on the original Meet Me on Monday hosted by Java at Never Growing Old.

Here are today’s Questions:
1. What was the first live concert you ever attended?
2. What colors look best on you?
3. What is one thing about you that most people wouldn’t know?
4. Who would you call to be bailed out of jail?
5. What do you think is the greatest invention of your lifetime and why?

1. I saw the Beatles in Seattle with my cousin.. I think I was 11..
2. I wear a lot of black and neutrals.. I don't know that they look best on me but it's what I'm       comfortable in.
3. That way back when I considered becoming a nun.
4. My husband for sure
5. The microwave.. my parents got each of us a commercial microwave in the late 70s.. they got them from a friend who was in the restaurant supply business.. The other would be computers and the Internet.

Happiness

Thank goodness my darling daughter and I have made up over our little tiff.. Paige is on the left and Erin on the right.. We went back and forth a bit.. and then I sent her this youtube clip because it's really how I feel.. I don't like being at odds with anyone but especially not one of my children..

Simon and Garfunkel - Bridge Over Troubled Water (Live 1969)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=GYKJuDxYr3I

I will always be a bridge over troubled water for my children.. I know that people have disagreements but there is nothing like family.  I love Erin with all my heart and will always be there for her and to encourage her.. same with the others.. I am so happy that we are back on track with one another.  We did discuss the issues that were bothering us and that was good too..

Sail on Silver Girl..
Sail on by..
your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
Im sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.

I love you, Erin! And your time to shine is now!!

Home

I just did a post and some how lost it.. so I'll start over.. I am home now.. missing my daughter and my baby.. I was able to help them get setteled in their new home.. it's so cute and cozy. they have a ton of room for Zack to play.. he's army crawling and will soon be doing the hands and knees crawling.. once that starts.. watch out.. he will be into everything. He is such a cutie..

Crazy

I am going crazy with getting rid of stuff.. I have been going through everything under my bathroom sinks since there is no room to put anything else!!  I found things that have not been used since we moved here 2 1/2 years ago.. I'm tossing it all.. Some have expiration dates and some don't.. but I know all of it is old and I don't want to put that on my skin or hair..

So I'm doing under the sinks, my pantry, garage and the second garage that is full of boxes still.. It needs to be done and if I follow my plan of doing a little every day I will get through it..

When I sold my house years ago.. I had so much stuff. My ex left a ton of stuff.. asked me to keep it for him and then refused to take it when I was ready to move.. I think we were all packrats.. plus I had all kinds of things stored for my preschool.. I spent a year going through things an hour or two at a time every week.  I would put everything out in the carport and then Peter would come over and haul it all away on the weekend.. That was very cleansing for me.. I've moved twice since then and still have things to get rid of even though with each move I've tried to go through things.. On our last move we had very little time to do anything except for big items and clothes we gave to charity so it all got moved here.. and that's why I have a single car garage full of stuff.. some I will want to keep.. but there is so much I can do without.  Maybe I've been watching too many shows of Hoarders.. I just never want to be like that.. Peter is good.. he likes to do what he calls editing.. I'm getting that way too..

Comedy??

My stepson does stand up comedy and is going to be performing this week at an open mic night.  A few friends want to come plus we need to know where the place is for ourselves.. of course the little rascal who is almost 21 doesn't drive so we will be taking him.. would be nice to go to the right address.  He had yesterday off from work.  He was still in his room at 1 PM.. so I emailed him the link I found and asked if that was right.. didn't get back to me.. later I see him downstairs and he said he didn't see the email.  I asked him to please look at it and get back to me.. nothing.. then about 5 I go in his room.. he has on headphones and listening to something on the computer.. kind of half asleep.  I asked him again and he said.. oh yeah I think so.. I said I need to know for sure.. ok.. and nothing else from him.

I made dinner and it had shrimp in it so it was something that had to be put together at the last minute and couldn't be sitting and cooking forever.. We usually eat about the same time every night and everyone knows that.  The only difference is if Peter is late.. but then I usually feed Max and Peter can eat when he is ready.. lately Max says he wants to wait and we can eat together.. which is something I like.. Max came downstairs at the right time.. then Peter came down.. he said he told Shelby dinner was ready.. so after I fixed our plates and we all sat down, Shelby shows up.. this was 15 to 20 minutes later.. I was a bit ticked.. Peter knew it and jumped up and fixed Shelby's plate.. He probably could have done it himself but I really don't want him touching all the food that someone else might eat..

I told him why the two things bothered me.. he just sat there and stared at the floor.. All Peter could say is he should have told him dinner was ready earlier.. I don't think that needs to be done.. he's an adult.. He works most evenings so I make him a plate and put it in the fridge for when he gets home.  And on days when he is off I usually just fix the plate and if he doesn't come down it will get cold and that's his problem.. sometimes I feel like a short order cook.. Maybe I'm being too hard headed about this.. I always make sure the boys have what they need.. Like I posted before I have started washing their bedding and making their beds each week.. I washed all of Shelby's clothes because they were gross and I knew he wasn't going to wash them.. I've been ironing his shirts.. I didn't tell either of them why I was doing it.. and if they noticed they haven't said a word to me about it.. I don't think it's too much to ask for some consideration.. After some prodding he finally said he was sorry.. but it wasn't heartfelt.. he did empty the dishwasher yesterday and acted like he should get a medal for it.. I did tell him thank you and I've never made that a job for the boys.. so when they do it it's a treat for me. So far this month he's been home has been pretty good.. I've overlooked things and figured it wasn't worth the fight..

I know kids will be kids but it's hard to take when I ask very little of them and they just don't do it.. they even have to be reminded to brush their teeth.  Last night I asked Peter to "remind" Shelby to take a shower before bed (because as far as I know he rarely takes one.. hence the smell in his room!) and not stay up all night.. he said he was going to shower in the morning.. did he?  No and I don't think either one of them brushed their teeth.  And Shelby stayed up really late and then had to be at work by 7:30 today.

I will be so happy when this school year is over.. One more year of college for Shelby and then he will have to be figuring out what he wants to do in life.. Not sure about Max.. he can't seem to decide what to do.  His mom keeps telling him to come back to Oregon to live with her.. who knows he may do that.. I know my husband wouldn't like it.. I'm neutral on it.. it would be the same as going away to school.. Shelby has talked about moving someplace where he can get into stand up.. not sure where that would be.. I hope it works out for him.. Four more months or so and school will be out.. Yay!