Angel

I'm having such a difficult time with my dog being sick.

She is on 5 different meds and seems a little better and is eating again..

but I think she is going downhill.

she can't go up and down the stairs.. so I have to carry her..

so that is at least 10 times a day.. because I take her out every hour or so..

She has to be confined to the bathroom so she won't go on the carpet.

I've always loved having a dog.. but the end is always hard..

We are no where near putting her down..

I love her with all my heart and I hate to see her suffering..

Honestly.. it's killing me..

It's good that my Mom is here because I don't know how I would do it without her.

Taking care of Angel is almost a full time job..

so it's nice to have my Mom here to help with other things.

 

My Angel

Our little girl has been sick.. gone back and forth to the vet.. has had three rounds of antibiotics..

she saw the vet again yesterday and they said to take her to the pet hospital..

Said they might just medicate her or keep her over night..

She is still there and will see a specialist tomorrow and then might get to come home.

This breed has health issues and one is heart problems.

That is what she is having now.. her heart is enlarged and she can't breathe.

They put her on oxygen and that was helping.

I keep looking for her because she is always with me.. then I remember she is not here.

We knew when we got her that this breed could have problems.. but this came on so fast..

She is so still full of life.. I hate to see her suffering..

She's my Angel

Our Anniversary

This weekend was our 11th Anniversary

We went out to dinner and made my Mom come too

She thought we should go alone but we wanted her to come

I think she had fun

and so did we.

We went to one of my favorite restaurants called Willow.

We exchanged cards and Peter bought some bottles of nice wine that we will enjoy together.

We had huge storms and tons of rain yesterday

but today it's sunny and nice.

Good day for grocery shopping and errands.

Happy Birthday to my own boy

Happy Birthday on Sunday to my own little boy.. he's the baby of the family.. has overcome many obstacles.. he is now a math scholar.. and doing so well.. married to his wonderful wife, Kim.  I'm so very proud of both of them.. He has worked and been on his own since high school.. now back at school and has scholarships and grants.. he has become an amazing baker at his work..

One time he told me that I had never made cookies with him.. kind of broke my heart.. and now he has had a job for several years being a gluten free baker.. something Mama never taught him..

This is his birth announcement.. It's not a great pic but you get the idea. 

I love this young man with all my heart.. he has grown and matured.. and chosen life and to be happy!!  Can't wait to see him again!

My Birthday Boy

Our birthday boy after eating his cupcake.

Our little boy

We had a wonderful visit with all the kids.. Our little boy just turned one.. we had a birthday party for all the girls who have summer birthdays.. funny how Adam got into the picture too!!

My three kids and Adam's lovely wife Kim and my Mom.

Such a happy little boy

Loving on his Grampa

 Nana gets a hug!

What's become of the broken hearted..

I kept wondering why I posted this song "what's become of the broken hearted".. but now I know why.. my husband of over 20 years.. the father of my 3 beautiful children and I split.. it was not a happy ending.. but I loved him so much.. and he left me broken hearted.. I did everything I could to keep it together.. I have a hard time writing this.. because he took his own life.. and did it on my now husbands birthday.. people have told me that he didn't know the day.. but I think he did and I think he did it on purpose to spoil that day forever.. Plus his wife called my daughter first to let her know.. the last person who should have known first.. ugly.. the wife has never let the kids have any of this things.. things that should have been kept in our family.. pictures, history.. whatever.. the piano that we had for over 25 years.. none of it goes to them from their father.. they can't even read the note he wrote before he died...it breaks their hearts and it breaks mine too.. even though we didn't end well.. It still hurts.

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